It's been a good past couple of days honestly. Although the past entries have been filled with angst and pain, the past couple of days have been filled with relief and good times.

I'm very excited for Texas.. more for the roadtrip and the people I'm going with than what I'm going for and what I'm going to do once we get down there. I think I'll be in need of a "North Carolina" trip again soon as well.. but that will be decided after Texas. If that happens, it will be one way.

It's funny really. I finally got to the point today where I was okay with being alone. I was okay with never being together again. Then I heard him at work, or at least what I thought was him...and my heart skips a beat as I realize the disappointment I feel when it's not him. I'll never be over it.

If you would only stay gone
Maybe I could move on.