Thinking back I realize there's a lot you never knew about me too. For example, my birthmark is in the shape of New Zealand on my left shoulder blade. You've seen it a million times, but you never bothered to say anything.

I like my eggs scrambled with lots of cheddar cheese, but rarely eat them because they're high in cholesterol and I used to have very high cholesterol as a child...and whenever I tried to tell you what I know about health, you'd shrug it off and talk about the benefits of soy.

If I'm drinking coffee in the morning, I like it black.. if I'm drinking it in the afternoon or evening I need creamers. You could never order for me.

In kindergarten I almost failed because I didn't know how to skip, but it really wasn't that I didn't know how I just didn't see the reason for doing it. Now I wish we would have skipped more, it might have lightened the mood.

In high school I was shy as hell until my senior year when I realized that everyone else was just as scared of being alone as I was. I'm not shy anymore, but I can't connect with anyone new because I'm still stuck on you.

I don't believe in happy endings, because an ending means something is over. Kind of like us.

I have a scar on each of my knees. One is from a scooter accident I had when I was nine. The other is from riding my bike into a parked car on my driveway. I was always down on my knees begging for your heart and attention, so you'd never have noticed.

I was anorexic my freshman year of high school. I went from being 170lbs near the end of 8th grade to being 115lbs at the beginning of 9th grade and ate just enough to make my mom think I was healthy. Now I eat when I'm nervous, and since I met you I've gained 30lbs.

My grandma introduced me to the internet when I was twelve. She set me up in a chatroom with other junior high kids back before the internet was filtered with dirty old men.. or so she thought. By thirteen I had learned more about sex in those chatrooms than I would have learned in school. You've had enough sex with everyone else that I'm surprised you didn't teach me anything new.

I've lied to everyone I know. I don't even trust myself. I don't know why I do it, but its been going on since I was a kid. I don't do it to hurt anyone, I just have never felt that people will like who I really am.. then again, I don't know who I am anymore. You've lied to me more times than I can even fathom.

I have no ambition for life anymore. I sit around and contemplate why I'm still here, but I don't have the nerve to actually talk to God about it. When I do, it feels pointless and false. I miss the relationship I used to have with Christ, but it's almost to the point where I'll never get it back. I spent so much time helping you heal your relationship with Christ that I've almost lost mine.

I bought the Kelly Clarkson tickets the minute you said it would be fun to go. I took the day off of work, and when I got scheduled for it I found someone to pick it up for me so I wouldn't let you down. The funny thing is, you ended up letting me down.

I didn't hide any of it from you. You just never bothered to find out. Only God could stop me loving you, and I think He's working on it.